Freshman Orientation To Motherhood: By Hannah Martinez

Sep 9

Sep 9 Freshman Orientation To Motherhood: By Hannah Martinez

I finally joined the Mom Squad. My thoughts so far are: Motherhood is hard, rewarding, and I love it so much. I am the mother of a three-week-old little girl named Fallon. So basically a parenting expert. I kid I kid! I am like a college student in the first week of a class talking about how awesome it is, how they are going to totally study, and be on time for class, cut to a couple of months in, and they are showing up to class, haggard in their pajamas.

Truth is I have no clue what I am in for. It’s tough work, and in full transparency, I have many moments when she is crying, and I am crying, and I want my mom, and realizing that at some point she will be this grown, and quite possibly need me that way, and this terrifies and thrills me. It’s an amazing privilege to have this little human entrusted to you.

I love that when she is fussing, and I lay her on my chest, she will stop crying if only for a moment, because she knows she is safe in my arms. I am astounded that I have been puked on multiple times, and the girl has pooped directly into my hand, yet I still think she is pretty cool. She shows me daily and sometimes hourly that love really is about giving your all for someone. I look at this little girl who has my eyes, and think about how beautiful she is and wonder how it is I ever thought I was ugly?

Maybe that is strange, but I think back to all the times I said I wasn’t beautiful, and my mother would get angry and say how beautiful I was, and I always thought she was lying, but she wasn’t. When I see this little girl who undeniably looks like me, and all I see is beauty and wonder, I know my momma was telling the truth. I see so much beauty in my daughter; it takes my breath away. So ladies PSA: You are, in fact so beautiful it has probably made your momma cry at some point.

These past weeks have stretched me beyond what I thought I was capable of, shown me that true love is servanthood, deepened my relationship with God, and taught me just how little sleep you actually need to function. Let me tell ya His Grace is sufficient, and coffee is your friend. I may only be in Freshman orientation of motherhood, but I am so pumped about the days ahead.

Check out Hannah's lifestyle blog at https://lifeisjustdarling.wordpress.com!